Delusion: It is just a shiny strand, that looks grey.
Denial: Impossible! I'm just 28.
Impulsive: To pluck it out, but I didn't.
Hypochondriasis: I must be malnourished or anaemic or could it be a major free radical disorder.....?
Intellectualisation: Damn those melanocytes in the hair follicles!
Procrastinated on the three important projects at hand.
Passively got aggressed at poor husband.
Introjected all these reactions to the fact that I am not there in my life where I thought I'd be when I am grey, the lost sense of purpose, sense of achievement. Or the total lack of it.
To suppress all of these, I wore my own blend of perfume oils (and I can brag about it here!) Call it escapism or sublimation, I do feel a sense of achievement!
|My work station!|
Following my DIY disaster, I continued to blend oils. This time I bought some great essential oils from In Essence from Myers and Sweet Almond oil as a carrier. My blend is a Sweet Spicy Vanilla. It basically has
25% top notes, 20% middle notes and 55% base notes mixed in the carrier oil in 1:1 ratio.
Working out the percentages and ratios into drops and altering as needed, I came up with
Base Notes = 30 drops
Sandalwood oil: 10 drops
Vanilla oil: 10 drops
Cinnamon and clove oil: 10 drops
Middle notes = 10 drops
Ylang Ylang: 5 drops
Gardenia: 5 drops
Top Notes = 14 drops
Vanilla 10 drops
Zanzibar oil from In Essence: 10 drops. I know it won't add up to 14 but then, it smelt right!
I cheated by adding some of BPAL Gluttony around 5 to 6 drops because it is rich, buttery and sweet, balances the spiciness and adds more vanilla.
I used 2 mls of Sweet Almond oil to blend it all. Previously I had used 5 mls which made it weak. After leaving it in a cool dark place at least 72 hours, smelling and testing occasionally, it is ready to wear!
Overall it is a warm vanilla blend that feels comfortable but still has an edginess of spices. It is strong and mellow at the same time. But no one will ask you what you are wearing, it just doesn't stand out, it blends into the skin.
Back to my greys, after drenching my head with coconut oil yesterday and washing off, saturating with an overnight treatment, I have promised to take care of my hair and importantly promised myself not to stress.